Expressing What I Believe in
I believe in love. Love of animals, love of nature, love of family, love of friends, and love of life. My first instinct when asked what I believe in, is to say that I dislike hate. I asked myself why I would answer a question backwards that way. The quick answer is habit. I learned it somewhere. Old habits are things I'm questioning deeply these days. My previous blog post was about being overwhelmed and I think that being overwhelmed makes the hate comments more weighty to me. I have always had enough of my own problems. Listening to hate rants is far too daunting and cumbersome. It isn't inspiring, uplifting, or motivational.
I'm sure that I have made conversation weighty and cumbersome for others in the past too. I apologize and hope not to do it again.
This morning the sun is rising and even though my window is grubby from a cat asking to be let in on a regular basis, the sun still shines through. A thick patch of blooming hyacinths trails below a display of rock boulders accented by the pie cherry tree and the hazelnut tree reaching toward each other creating an arch. Layers of green leaves on branches of many different kinds of trees; maple, holly, crab apple, prune, and more lend a sense of opulence to the over grown lawn.
As I shift my critical perception from the negative to the positive, I am able to see the lush opulence before I notice the grubby window and the over grown lawn. I don't see trees that need to be pruned. I see abundance. This shift makes me smile automatically. This shift lets me feel joy right now regardless of my circumstance.
I want my first perception of everything to be through eyes of love and not of hate. Lately, when I encounter the negativity from others I back up and retreat to my world where I'm in charge of my attitude. Reality is what you make it. My reality is one where I've made a lot of changes and have a lot more to make. My glass is nearly full and I'm keeping it that way on purpose.
I have expressed what I believe in cautiously and quickly learn not to keep talking about it with scoffing people or those who want me to understand reality. I don't want to understand anybody's negative version of reality. I am not interested in wasting my life. I am interested in living it.
One of my favorite Mother Theresa quotes was coined when she was asked to participate in a march against war. Basically she said, "I will march for peace." She did not waste her energy. She moved toward what she believed in instead of fighting against what she didn't. She's not the only one but she is the only one who said it simply enough for me to remember it.
Instead of bemoaning my first husband's brain tumor and his mortality, I went about giving him the best life that I could. That's what got me through it. Sure at the end of it I was exhausted, angry, and lonely. But today I know that to be from not having my needs met. It's time to meet my needs and build my world in the image I want. Thank you Ben for being such a huge part of my education.
For today I have expressed something I believe in. Thanks for reading.
Carmen Davis
I'm sure that I have made conversation weighty and cumbersome for others in the past too. I apologize and hope not to do it again.
This morning the sun is rising and even though my window is grubby from a cat asking to be let in on a regular basis, the sun still shines through. A thick patch of blooming hyacinths trails below a display of rock boulders accented by the pie cherry tree and the hazelnut tree reaching toward each other creating an arch. Layers of green leaves on branches of many different kinds of trees; maple, holly, crab apple, prune, and more lend a sense of opulence to the over grown lawn.
As I shift my critical perception from the negative to the positive, I am able to see the lush opulence before I notice the grubby window and the over grown lawn. I don't see trees that need to be pruned. I see abundance. This shift makes me smile automatically. This shift lets me feel joy right now regardless of my circumstance.
I want my first perception of everything to be through eyes of love and not of hate. Lately, when I encounter the negativity from others I back up and retreat to my world where I'm in charge of my attitude. Reality is what you make it. My reality is one where I've made a lot of changes and have a lot more to make. My glass is nearly full and I'm keeping it that way on purpose.
I have expressed what I believe in cautiously and quickly learn not to keep talking about it with scoffing people or those who want me to understand reality. I don't want to understand anybody's negative version of reality. I am not interested in wasting my life. I am interested in living it.
One of my favorite Mother Theresa quotes was coined when she was asked to participate in a march against war. Basically she said, "I will march for peace." She did not waste her energy. She moved toward what she believed in instead of fighting against what she didn't. She's not the only one but she is the only one who said it simply enough for me to remember it.
Instead of bemoaning my first husband's brain tumor and his mortality, I went about giving him the best life that I could. That's what got me through it. Sure at the end of it I was exhausted, angry, and lonely. But today I know that to be from not having my needs met. It's time to meet my needs and build my world in the image I want. Thank you Ben for being such a huge part of my education.
For today I have expressed something I believe in. Thanks for reading.
Carmen Davis
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