Entre chien et loup

 



Entre chien et loup  (Ontra shy loo) means “between dog and wolf”.  This represents twilight where it could be difficult to discern the difference between the dog and wolf. 

I immediately pictured a dark shadowy night, fog rolling through twisted trees, and a warm fire where men toast themselves.  Looking up toward a knoll where reflective light of a neighboring campfire spot lights a slinking dog.  It morphs into a wolf as it melts into the night.  

I am caught by that metaphor in regard to my life right now.  Politics, corporate medicine, insurance companies, the media.  There is a fine dance, a delicate rendering by a graceful elephant that we admire as it performs for us while behind the scenes the bill for the services rendered is calculated by the weight of the elephant. 

This is not a tirade about anything.  It is simply a reflection of flame from the fireplace in the mirror.  A level of seeing.  Not comprehending, not questioning, not agreeing nor disagreeing.  Simply looking and allowing the vision to become words.

Here without judgement, without expectation, I wait as I process the experiences of my day.

Entre chien et loup, “between dog and wolf”.  I see a reflection of myself where I am the dog, friendly, benign, and accepting.  When the people go away, I melt back into my life.

Sincerely, Carmen

 

  


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