Releasing Old Beliefs

 

Releasing Old Beliefs

I recently released a belief that a lack of money was going to keep me from fixing or finishing some things that are important to me.   I was unaware that I was busily outlining the chain of events as I perceived they had to happen.  I cannot remember what I was listening to that brought this understanding to me but as I turned my problem over to a higher power, along with the words where I allowed that my needs would be met without me limiting or defining how it would be done, but that it would happen with ease, the process began.  Those aren’t my exact words.  I don’t remember what my exact words were but I do remember the relief I felt as I released the belief that I must struggle to have my needs met.  I released the belief that my dreams were too big for my circumstances.

I was guided to ask a person who could and would give me a hand at no charge.  In order to do this, I had to release my belief that I shouldn’t interact with a hate filled person who spews things on Facebook that totally opposes my belief system.  The lesson for me in this is that hate filled people cannot change unless they are exposed to love filled people.  In hating the haters, we nurture their perception which is no better than what they are doing.  In having the courage to continue to act on my beliefs without judging or preaching, I asked for help and I received it.  The help I was given was generous and beyond my financial ability to pay for.  In looking for a way to show my gratitude, in addition to remaining present and actively helping, I was guided to prepare something that could not be obtained easily or cheaply.  When I went shopping for the main ingredients, I found everything and more at less than half of the current prices.  I was able to prepare these delicacies and preserve them in small portions for convenience for this person.  There was an unexpected cost to me when my Food Saver had to be replaced but that was still a bonus in its own way.  I was able to allow a hater to give love by action.  This is an imprint that requires no discussion.

A chain of circumstances brought an electrician to my attention who is related to me by marriage.  When I sent her a request for help, she came as soon as she could which as far as electricians go, was pretty darn good.  She was here in less than 9 days.  With her expertise, the previous person referred to, was able to purchase parts which totaled $517.96 which I reimbursed.   He was able to dig a 100’ long and 18” deep ditch with his backhoe.  This took several hours and was hot, dusty work.  I remained with him and pulled the old wire out of the way as he unearthed it.

When the electrician tried to troubleshoot the problem, she struggled with a number of questions the same as the person earlier referenced.  I am the one who chose that the power source and the breaker box be replaced.  These are big and troublesome issues and not to be done lightly.  She told me that for her part of the job, she would normally charge about $5000 but for me she would do it for $1500.  I swallowed my belief that I could not afford this and felt that $1500 was a really great deal.  I actually felt the relief of the $3500 difference since that is more than my monthly income.  As she struggled through all of the irregularities and she became more aware of my actual circumstance she lowered the fee to $500.  I was jubilant with this decision and immediately let the other helper know what the plan was and that is when he came back into the picture and did the ditch work.  He’d already spent about 7 hours trying to troubleshoot the problems so her input was actually confirmation.

That evening after the Mysterious Lady Electrician went home, she sent me the following text.

Hey Carmen, I was thinking of you and your old dogs today.  Feel free to say no to this offer.  I have taken over my dad’s 13-year-old Springer this past week.  She pees in the house because she can’t do stairs but is still a very sweet dog, so we have to let her out just before bed and early morning so she won’t.  My dad was not able to carry her up and down his stairs.  If you are interested, I would trade the $500 labor to install your panel, if you were interested in taking her.

I was excited to accept the dog!  I can’t find the words to express how perfect this solution was for me. I am currently attempting to teach her how to catch.  I believe when she had her full vision it was something she could do.   She has done it successfully five times.  I love watching her joy as she prepares herself for the catch and the surprise that registers when she actually catches.  She stopped peeing in the house within the first three days.  Her leg quivering is greatly reduced due to our walks.  My dogs like her.  This was definitely a good match. 

At the same time another opportunity plopped itself straight into life.  One of the people who will be reading this is causing a lovely shed to be built here to house our Halloween props and decorations and more!  This requires a consultation but the appointment is made and I have accepted the offer with gratitude. 

An opportunity for me to pick up some expensive stepping stones in exchange for a little labor, has made it possible for me to create a walkway from the drive to the summer kitchen door.   This same opportunity handed me a pile of hoses; some good, some fixable, and some bad.  I was in need of hoses. Pressure treated lumber, metal fence posts, a giant compost turner, and a few other things were all part of the same deal.

Any time that I refuse an offer that serves me and all involved, I am refusing that which I have asked for. It has been hard to learn this lesson even though it is a very simple operation.  If I think I haven’t done enough to earn something, I am getting in my own way.  If I feel that I don’t deserve something, I am getting in my own way.   

I am not defined by my circumstance.

Sincerely, Carmen Davis